Writer's Block. Since April on this blog. Hmm....
I've got ideas...but they won't come to words. Or the words that I have started to write are on another computer at a different house where we used to be staying. Hmm...perhaps it just ain't gonna happen (good English, I know.)
Probably because watching the Blue Jays game on TV is a lot easier than writing something...hmm...that may be contributing.
Well, here's what we are going to do. We are going to walk through and see what has happened since April. Then maybe some words will come. Let's see...
1. Sweet girl named Carol, age 5 died. I attended her burial and memorial service...and cried a lot of tears.
2. I said good bye to one of my best friends in the whole world, there was peace, but it also came with lots of tears. As I said good bye, I thought of my own that were coming and I wanted to stop the time.
3. Our last two months were filled with visitors and trips and fellowship between the people who have become family to me. Very, very precious and special times.
4. Then, I said good bye to all of them. All those people who have become family-brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, cousins, jajjas...little ones who won't remember me the next time I see them. Special people who may not be there when I go back.
5. I moved to the other side of the world and had to re-adjust to my home culture
Obviously, much more than that has happened, but those are the top five things that I remember from the past four months. All of these things have changed my life in really big ways. And sometimes, it is very easy to feel lost. After all, most of my friends are on the other side of the world right now. One very precious girl is in heaven. I'm in a country that I haven't lived in for three years. I need to learn things all over again. Like how to use a microwave or a washing machine. And sometimes, it is easy to give up and despair. To wonder why I am so far away from my friends and my "home."
But earlier this week, by chance, as I was listening to some music this chorus began to play, while I was doing something else but it struck me hard.
"Take another step, take another step
When the road ahead is dark
And you don’t know where to go
Take another step, take another step
Trust God and take another step
And another step and another step
Take another step and another step and another step"
When the road ahead is dark
And you don’t know where to go
Take another step, take another step
Trust God and take another step
And another step and another step
Take another step and another step and another step"
These words. Three simple words: Take another step. Trust God. Take another step.
Even when you have said good bye to your best friends.
Take another step.
Even when you have left your home.
Take another step.
Even when you have no plans for the future.
Take another step.
Even when everything is lost.
Take another step.
Even when you can't go on.
Take another step.
In other words, trust.
Trust in the God who has led us this far...
And trust in the God who will continue to lead us on...
The road is dark. I don't know where I'm going or where my family is going. We are in transition right now along with many other people I know. We can't see past the darkness that shadows the road, where we are supposed to go or do, but I am reminded. Trust God. Take another step, and one step at a time, He will lead us to where He wants us.
He know where we are going. He knows every step we will take, whether it is through the valley or to the top of the mountain. If that step will be on our feet or on our knees. He knows.
Don't give up.
Take another step.
Trust.
You who fear him, trust in the Lord—
he is their help and shield.
he is their help and shield.
~Psalm 115:11
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